1-1 Currents
I hope you have warm currents that carry you forward in the direction you want to go. If the currents that push you are cold and corrosive, you will need to be vigilant and strong to resist them. If your father might have been abusive or indifferent, a demanding perfectionist or permissively indulgent you will be challenged to take a different direction. The greater the number of those corrosive currents, the greater your challenges will be.
Resisting the current does not mean forgetting your past. You cannot successfully run away from what has happened to you. You can hate what has happened to you but feel tender and loving toward yourself for facing it. What you experienced will always be a part of you. Better to love that part of yourself and transform that experience into strength.